Since you're gone my empty arms have nothing left to hold

Title: hallelujah you love him so [AO3]
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG13
Word count: 1500 ca
Spoilers: 8x07 coda
Warnings: nothing really.
Disclaimer: I don't own them, sadly for me.
Summary: If it’s worth something, your side is where I wanted to be all along; it’s the only place where I’ve ever wanted to see you. Or, where Dean and Castiel share the Impala's backseat and some things are talked out.
A/N: sooo, uhm, in September it was maharetishtar's birthday and I asked her for a prompt and she said Dean/Cas where they cuddle up in the back of the Impala. Says everything that it took me two months and last episode to actually do it the way I wanted, but I wanted to do a coda for it and it fit, so there we go. Title slightly reworked from an Animals song. Also, second person POV. Using for my homebrew_bingo wild card square.

( 'I’m sorry', you don’t tell him as you sit in relatively comfortable silence in the back of his car. )

This is me trying to clean comment fic off my HD, starting with the last five acts round. At some point I'll manage to post the Dean/Cas ones from the previous four, too...

Title: the cuts, the scars, the pain [AO3]
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG13
Word count: 800 words ca
Spoilers: 7x17 coda and wildly AU by now
Warnings: nothing that wouldn't be clear from the summary.
Disclaimer: nothing's mine, sadly for me.
Summary: showing someone a different scar they don’t know about every time you see them so that they know you’re real isn’t what you’d call normal.
A/N: written for joyyjpg at the latest five acts round, for the prompts scars and angst; title from Bruce Springsteen.

( This time, it’s a faint cut on his hip. )


Title: I ask myself about the present [AO3]
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Rating: PG13
Word count: 1870
Spoilers: AU from 7x17.
Warnings: none.
Disclaimer: nothing's mine, sadly.
Summary: where Cas can't get rid of Lucifer completely and Dean tries to be as helpful as he can.
A/N: written for wandersfound at the latest five acts round; the prompts were touching, hurt/comfort and communication issues/talking. Both the title and the section titles are from Kurt Vonnegut's Slaughterhouse Five (or: this fic was brought to you by my random re-reading).

( god grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to always tell the difference. )


Title: all time is time [AO3]
Pairing: Dean/Castiel (Crowley guest stars)
Rating: PG13
Word count:
Spoilers: up until 7x17, then goes totally AU
Warnings: (temporary/erased because of time traveling) character deaths mentioned in the beginning.
Disclaimer: nothing's mine, sadly.
Summary: where Dean is the only one left after defeating the Leviathans and Crowley has a deal to offer. For once, it might be a good one.
A/N: written at the last five acts round for pann_cake, for the prompts time travel, kissing and hurt/comfort Title from Kurt Vonnegut.

( He needs to fix it. )

Title: to the lost
Pairings/Characters: Dean/Castiel, past Dean/Lisa; Crowley and Sam appear too.
Rating: NC17
Word Count: 12800 ca
Warnings: violence, PTSD (both main characters are WWI veterans) - includes some flashbacks to war scenes, one main character is permanently/heavily disfigured/scarred, minor characters dying left and right/killed in cold blood, since both main characters are hitmen. Blood on people's hands (literally and metaphorically). Mentions that both main characters had fleeting suicidal thoughts in the past.
Summary: 1921: Dean Winchester and Castiel Milton are two WWI veterans meeting by chance at a hospital. Dean, works for an alcohol smuggler for whom he does small/dirty business. After Castiel helps Dean with his current assignment, he ends up working alongside him for good. Neither of them is completely fine with it but when the only thing you're trained to do is kill people, there's not much of a choice.
Disclaimer: SPN isn't mine and my source of inspiration belongs to HBO. Sorry, nothing belongs to me.
A/N: written for the first round at dc_dystopia; this is partly based on Boardwalk Empire, or better, on the specific storyline regarding Jimmy Darmody and Richard Harrow. (This mostly was based on some S1 material, but I haven't used other plot elements from the show beyond some details after the first meeting.) Thanks so very much to brokentoy85 for betaing ♥. Also, just go look/gush at the gorgeousness that is gassadaa's art post because it's nothing short of stunning. The title is from a BE episode/line.

Title: a world of gods and monsters
Rating: R (for potentially disturbing content rather than sexual)
Word count: around 17400
Warnings: everything the prompt might imply, including: creepiness/horror, very much implied gore (there aren’t graphic descriptions but it’s there), corpses (one of which belonging to a minor) are used in not exactly ethical ways. Castiel isn’t in what I’d call a completely sane place. Also: in the epilogue, there’s something going on that might be considered dub-con if you define dub-con by extremely strict standards (in a not-really-sexual situation). I wouldn’t classify it as such but since it’s a fine line I mentioned it anyway.
Disclaimer: SPN isn’t mine. My main inspiration is public domain by now, but most definitely not mine either.
Spoilers: AU, so none for the show except for winks at canon.
Summary: wherein Castiel will do anything so that Dean doesn’t stay dead.
Author notes: written for this year's deancas_xmas round for the prompt 19th century body snatching/mad science. Castiel brings Dean back to life. All the supposed scientific/medical procedures in this fic are more or less inspired by Frankenstein (the classic movie), so just don’t expect anything described in this fic to be even remotely realistic/plausible/with a scientific basis of some sort (same thing about the academia-related part – for one, I’m pretty sure body snatching wasn’t a common practice in Kansas, but just bear with me here). Mildly inspired also by The Body Snatcher. Title from a line in Bride of Frankenstein. Endless thanks to joyyjpg for helping me fleshing the plot out.

( The clock on the inn’s wall ticks too slow and too fast at the same time. )

Title: you were above me, but not today
Characters/Pairings: Amelia, Castiel (peripheral: Jimmy - sort of -, Claire, Dean); Amelia/Jimmy.
Wordcount: 6800 ca
Rating: PG13
Spoilers: until 7x02, implies 7x06. But if you saw 7x01 you'll probably get what's going on.
Warnings: other than all the flashbacks not being in what I'd call a strict linear order, none.
Disclaimer: SPN isn't mine. Sadly for me.
Summary: This is not the angel who possessed both her daughter and her husband, Amelia thinks, and she can’t help it – he looks so miserable that she can’t even stay angry at him.. Or, wherein Amelia gets a phone call and months later a fallen Castiel looking worse for wear knocks at her door.
A/N: written for tawg for novakfest round two for the prompt, Castiel has fallen. Not knowing what else to do, he goes to Amelia. This was in part (the thing with the phone call) graciously inspired by Stephen King's the New York Times special at bargain rates. Title is from a Beatles song. For the rest it was all yours truly. I hope that the S7 setting is good for you and that this fits the bill. :) thanks to bja727 for betaing.

( “I’m sorry,” Castiel says, and the worst thing is that he sounds so sincere that she can’t even try not to believe him. )

Title: the backseat
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Wordcount: 1300
Rating: PG13
Spoilers: until 6x20, then goes wildly AU.
Warnings: none really.
Disclaimer: SPN isn't mine. Sadly for me.
Summary: Everything reminds him of 2014 – except that it’s not entirely the same.
A/N: written for pann_cake for the five acts meme, round five: the prompts were apocalypse, kissing, cars and sharing (clothes, in this case). Posting it in another entry because I'm not feeling like splitting anything in more than one comment today. Using for hc_bingo, stranded/survival scenario. Title from Gaslight Anthem.

( “I told you already,” Cas breathes, barely audible. “I’d rather be here. Being in charge was miserable. )

Title: they moved the moon
Characters: Dean, Castiel (though with… let’s say a twist), Sam, Bobby
Wordcount: 4200
Rating: PG13
Spoilers: for 7x02.
Warnings: language.
Disclaimer: SPN isn’t mine and it wasn’t even my prompt. This is all wishful thinking and I own nothing.
Summary: That night he opens the trunk again – he really has to be a masochist – and takes the coat in his hands, gingerly, holding it to his chest. It’s ridiculous, but he feels slightly better. Or: wherein Dean isn’t feeling all right and Castiel’s trenchcoat isn’t all that it seems.
A/N: so, uh, last day on Twitter I ended up discussing a fic idea with nyoka  who had the idea and gets the entire merit for the premise of this, I thought it should exist, I merged it with another half-plot I had been thinking on and there it is. Follows straight from the ending of 7x02, but the rest is all speculation. Title from Warren Zevon.

( Dean isn’t sure if he wants to know whether he’s right or not, even if he has enough proof that whatever’s up with the coat, it’s not something bad. For once. )

Title: the fifth element
Pairing/Characters: Dean/Castiel, Sam, Crowley, Andy, Ash, Balthazar, Bobby, Henriksen, plus a number of others appearing
Word count: ∼23000
Rating: NC17
Spoilers: as it's an AU, none for the series and everything for the movie it's based on.
Warnings: violence, language, sort of minor character death that you know already if you've seen the original movie [highlight for explanations] red shirts and bad guys die.
Disclaimer: Supernatural isn't mine and The Fifth Element belongs to Luc Besson. I own nothing.
Summary: wherein it's 2060, Dean is a not-so-happy-with-his-life cab driver with an estranged priest brother and he finds out that the man who crashed into his car is the key to stop the end of the world.
A/N: extremely late fic for missjigsaw23 for the Everlasting Birthday Challenge at deancastiel (extremely late because I was sure the day was one week later and then it ran away on me more than I thought), for the prompt: Fifth Element fusion: Dean is the down-on-his-luck cab driver, Cas is the 'supreme being' who crashes through the roof of the cab after escaping a government lab. Bonus points for Sam as Cornelius and/or Crowley as Zorg.. I switched the aliens for demons and angels and changed some other things, but the basic plot is that one. I'm afraid it isn't as deliciously campy as the original, but I hope it fits the bill. Also I should have achieved the bonus points ;) happy late birthday!

I'm not sure of how 2014!Cas ended up being an influence in this but apparently that's what happened.

Title: and anywhere I lay my head I'll call it home
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Word count: ∼13100
Rating: NC17
Spoilers: none really?
Warnings: mentions of alcoholism, implied past drug use (neither is explicit though, and none of that happens in the fic itself).
Disclaimer: they aren't mine, the plot is a prompt and the songs are Tom Waits's. Sorry, none of this whatsoever is mine.
Summary: wherein Dean is driving to California but gets sidetracked, and Castiel plays Tom Waits songs in the middle of nowhere.
A/N: written for drunken_kurage at deancastiel's Everlasting Birthday exchange; my prompt was Human AU. While driving cross country to meet up with his brother for Sam's spring break, Dean's car breaks down in the middle of nowhere. The closest sign of civilization is a backwater, 'only the locals know about this place' kind of bar. Castiel is a mysterious guy who works in the bar some nights, singing covers of Tom Waits' songs. This was also supposed to have a proper fanmix to go with it but alas, RL happened and I didn't manage - but it could happen later. I changed the prompt a bit because it worked better with the plot I came up with but I hope it's still valid and that it fits the bill. Happy birthday! :D
A/N 2: all the songs mentioned have a link bringing back to my box.net account where you can listen to them/download them, except for one which is on youtube because I don't have the mp3 right now. Also, Auburn, Nevada doesn't exist as far as I could check - I took the name of a random place in Nebraska since it's where the Roadhouse is supposed to be and used it instead.

( For the first time in his life, Dean Winchester curses his fear of airplanes. )

Title: on the line where dreams are found and lost
Pairing: Dean/Castiel
Word count: ∼7300
Rating: NC17
Spoilers: for 6x22.
Warnings: angst galore, PTSD (or well, PTSD symptoms), some blaspheming, extremely liberal usage of Christian rituals.
Disclaimer: nothing is mine and I sadly don't make any money out of this.
Summary: Cas won’t ever move on if he doesn’t get closure. or, wherein Dean unconventionally provides it.
A/N: at some point in July I was listening to Bruce Springsteen's Racing in the Street and this happened. Then it took me almost two months to find it a proper ending. *facepalm* I'm totally unspoiled for S7 so there's nothing but speculation in here. Using for the wet/messy/dirty square in my kink_bingo card and for the upset at higher being one on my hc_bingo one. Title from Springsteen, though it's not the same song that prompted this.

( In the end, the solution was easy. )