Since you're gone my empty arms have nothing left to hold

This be my finale reaction fic. Which is not what I should've been doing but I needed it out. Also because I WROTE LOST UNPROMPTED FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE THE VARIABLE. \o/ Sort of.

Title: But I'll know my song well before I start singing
Rating: PG
Characters: alt!Boone plus a bunch of other alt!people
Words: 3470
Summary: Then again, he figures, there’s a reason if he remembers. Or, alt!Boone's POV on pretty much everything.
Spoilers: heavy and major for the finale. Summary is visible just if you highlight just to be absolutely sure I don't spoil you, even if it's vague.
Disclaimer: Lost isn't mine, pfffff. I wish.
A/N: I needed to get this out. Physically. Also, today I ended up bawling so much that even if I can't cry anymore my vision is blurry, therefore forgive me for anything that might have been caused by poor vision. Title from Bob Dylan.

( He smiles to himself, and figures he can be patient. )

Errrm. *hides about the second one, but it was time I re-posted it*.

Title: Pretty Sights
Rating: R
Pairing: Shannon/Juliet
Words: 1927
Summary: “I’m glad I died in my own clothes. That jumpsuit? The more time I look at it the more I’d just want to take it off.”
Spoilers: until 5x15. The rest is speculation for the finale, but I'm sure it's not going to happen. But it was convenient.
Disclaimer: haaa, no, not mine.
A/N: for lenina20 who wanted ghost for the alphabet meme; using for au_abc, killed. Obviously, character death implied, but I swear it's as light as it goes. Sorry, but dead person/alive person was becoming too easy. ;)

( Now, I think you’d be a very pretty sight yourself, but with that thing? Jesus. I hope that you took it off with Sawyer. )

Title: Dreams
Rating: NC17
Pairing: Jack/Charlie/Sawyer
Words: 1197
Summary: The only reason Charlie isn't freaking out is that this has to be a dream.
Spoilers: as long as you know that Charlie used drugs, you're safe.
Disclaimer: haaa, no, not mine.
A/N: this originally was for lostsquee's fic battle ages ago for the prompt tentacle sex. But it's all toestastegood's fault. ;) *coughcough* using for au_abc, mutants. And yeah, you read tentacle sex and yes, it's what it is.

( No doubt that, for a dream, this feels indeed real. )

Forgive me the heavy load of stuff here but I swear it's all short stuff. And I guess it'll be the last post before I go so Merry Christmas meanwhile. ;)

Non Lost:

Title: Unchanging (Heroes/Supernatural crossover)
Pairing: John Winchester/Adam Monroe
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Pff. Seriously. If Heroes was mine it'd be a way better show. And if SPN was mine JDM would appear as the monthly angel or something.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: the pilot for SPN and... well, if you know who Adam is, you're good.
Summary: His name was Adam and even if he had always considered their... well, their business either one of those crushes that comes one day and is gone the other or a way to avoid going definitely mad in that hell on earth, John had always remembered him clearly.
A/N: for toestastegood who 'forced' me on the meme down here.

( It’s not like he’s having a drink with a total stranger because the man is not a total stranger. )

Title: Brokeback
Pairing: faaaaaint Tim/Jason
Rating: PG?
Disclaimer: Friday Night Lights is not mine. Especially because if it was they wouldn't have done what they did and I'd be watching it regularly, not trying to gather the courage to catch up.
Word count: 386
Spoilers: the Brokeback episode. ;)
Summary: He isn’t sure the position means anything but that handful of words does, it does so much, especially after all that happened what seems ages ago and what happened just now.
A/N: for lasamy who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ First time I write FNL ever. God. Go me.

( Well, yeah, might be so Brokeback but he wouldn’t ever renounce this. )

Lost:

Title: Disadvantages Occurring When You Start Naming Too Many Stars
Characters: Karl, who's having sort of a bit of a crush on Sawyer.
Rating: PG13
Disclaimer: Lost is nooot mine. Canon wouldn't have happened.
Word count: 517
Spoilers: If Lost was mine, what Did Not Happen wouldn't have happened.
Summary: Karl is also sure he looks like an idiot whenever he’s around him. The worst thing is that Alex kind of joked about it once and said he didn’t have bad taste.
A/N: For bachlava who did asked for one of the sane family in another meme. by the way, what Did Not Happen Does Not Happen after this. ;) the title is mine for once. Shows because it's horrible.

( Okay, so, Karl doesn’t have an idea of what is happening. Not-at-all. )

Title: The Man In Black Fled Across The Desert
Characters: Sawyer
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine, The Dark Tower isn't either.
Word count: 319
Spoilers: ppf, nothing? Well, the first two lines of the first Dark Tower book aren't a spoiler. I hope.
Summary: Sawyer doesn’t like Stephen King. Correction: Sawyer hates Stephen King.
A/N: for thespiansparkle who asked for a drabble too and gets this because I thought it was a good idea.

( He thinks that maybe he should check the plot on the back cover. But then again, why? That’d be no surprise, right? )

Title: Whirl Away
Pairing: Desmond/Sayid
Rating: light NC17
Disclaimer: This is me being hopeful. Of course Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 647
Spoilers: S4 finale.
Summary: He isn't doing this just because he's so desperate that he'll take any kind of comfort that brings his mind away from the real world, but also because they have been sharing the cabin for a week and Sayid has barely given a sign of acknowledging he's here at all.
A/N: originally for erika325 for that trick and treat fic post. Using for lostpicksix #2, kissing. Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( It happens in a second or something like it. )

Title: Here I Go And I Don't Know Why
Pairing: Boone/Claire
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Ha, Lost is not mine. What news.
Word count: 749
Spoilers: White Rabbit? Is that a spoiler?
Summary: It starts the day when he apologizes to her for the water. He’s really sorry and absolutely ashamed and the way Arzt looks at him when he says he’s sorry surely doesn’t make things easier.
A/N: for lenina20 who 'forced' me on the meme down here. ♥ Using for un_love_you #11, Thought I needed this. Uhm, did I really finally tried the pairing? Title stolen from Patti Smith.

( If there’s one thing Boone Carlyle is incapable of doing, is saying no (especially when you’re a girl, you’re a blonde and with a completely different attitude from his sister’s, but Claire doesn’t know this and it doesn’t matter anyway, since the other thing about Boone Carlyle is that he always does what he does sincerely). )

Title: Revenge Is A Kind of Wild Justice
Pairing: Boone/Shannon
Rating: light R
Disclaimer: It should be clear that Lost isn't mine.
Word count: 580
Spoilers: In Traslation maybe?
Summary: She wants him to hate her because it’s not fair that she needs to hate him and and he just doesn’t get it. She needs someone to have her revenge on and since she won’t ever get any on Sabrina, it’s got to be him. Even if he doesn’t really have much of a fault.
A/N: uhm, this one is for me I guess, because I like myself Boone angst. ;) ;) seriously, I wrote it in class, has been sitting for a while and since I was having the ficlet dump.. using for un_love_you #16, I want to break you. Title stolen from some Francis Bacon quote. I'm not worthy.

( Then they crash and she realizes that nothing has changed really, because he still loves her anyway like the hopeless moron he is, except that now he’s beyond any repair. )

Oh wow. That was hard. Okay, I'm done. ;)

Title: I've Been Everywhere 3/14
Rating: PG-13 for this part, will reach NC17 overall
Characters/Pairings for this part: Jack, Boone, Sawyer, Shannon.
Word counting: 4555 this part, around 50000 overall.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine and all the folk songs used here are not mine. The places really exist and I've never been there.
Summary: Sawyer is a rambling musician during the Dust Bowl, Jack a former L.A. doctor traveling with him.
Thanks to: elliotsmelliot for the great beta job for which I can't be grateful enough and to fosfomifira for the title. I'd still be searching for one otherwise.
A/N: the song referenced here is So Long, It's Been Good To Know You by Woody Guthrie (you can also find it by Pete Seeger); this takes place at the same time 2 took place but it was too long to put them together.

Part I, Part II, Part IV, Part V, Part VI, Part VII, Part VIII, Part IX, Part X, Part XI, Part XII, Part XIII, Part XIV

( Jack feels weird. He hasn’t known this guy for three hours yet and here he is, spilling the story of his life or something like that. It’s not exactly like Boone isn’t doing the same thing either, but in some twisted way this place looks like something he might have wanted once. )

Title: I've Been Everywhere 2/14
Rating: strong PG-13 for this part, will reach NC17 overall
Characters/Pairings for this part: Sawyer, Jack, Boone, Shannon; Sawyer/Shannon (sort of).
Word counting: 3644 this part, around 50000 overall.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine and all the folk songs used here are not mine. The places really exist and I've never been there.
Summary: Sawyer is a rambling musician during the Dust Bowl, Jack a former L.A. doctor traveling with him.
Thanks to: elliotsmelliot for the great beta job for which I can't be grateful enough and to fosfomifira for the title. I'd still be searching for one otherwise.
A/N: the only song referenced here is Buffalo Gals (traditional); Shannon's girls are Cindy, Jessica and Mary Jo.

Part I, Part III, Part IV, Part V, Part VI, Part VII, Part VIII, Part IX, Part X, Part XI, Part XII, Part XIII, Part XIV

( Sawyer isn’t in a hurry as he leaves the infirmary and gets closer to the actual city; this is a fairly bigger place than that stinking Granada hole and while he takes his time, he’s also glad that Shannon’s place is pretty much in the outskirts. )

I had this one almost done for a while, it fit the Queen's request perfectly, so I polished it up while my friends were off doing their things and here it is.

Title: Things You Do In Craphole Island When You See Dead People
Rating: PG13 because it's Miles
Pairing: Miles/Shannon
Words: 2795
Summary: What luck. The hottest chick ever seen in his life and she has to be dead.
Spoilers: up to the S4 finale.
Disclaimer: do you really believe Darlton would come up with this?
A/N: for Queen hollycomb at lostsquee who wanted Miles and the dead and for chemi15try #8, catalyst. I sincerely hope you like it even if I'll admit that the pairing is a stretch. But I had wanted to write it for months now *cough*. The title is a wordplay of Warren Zevon's Things to Do in Denver When You're Dead.

( “So you’re really being my stalker or whatever only because you think I’m hot?”  )

Okay, so two ficlets for today's Queens at lostsquee

Title: I Don't Need the Same
Characters: Boone, Shannon
Word counting: 550
Rating: PG13, still implies half-incest ;)
Disclaimer: Meh, not mine.
Spoilers: Nothing past Abandoned.
Summary: It takes dying to make them realize that maybe they had it all wrong all along and maybe two hours to realize that what hasn’t worked when they were alive won’t work now that they aren’t.
A/N: this one is for Queen kayim who favors Shannon and Boone. As I need more excuses to write those two, even if this isn't probably anything you had in mind. I hope I get you to buy it though ;) using also for un_love_you #27, author's choice (better as friends).

( Three days after Shannon dies, Boone asks her whether she missed the old times. )

Title: Laying It Down
Pairing: Jack, Sawyer
Word counting: 550
Rating: PG13 to be sure
Disclaimer: Not mine, you'd have had J/S sex in Catch 22 if they did.
Spoilers: Up to Catch 22.
Summary: Jack takes the deck of cards out of his pocket, putting it over a pile of books standing next. “I thought that maybe you’d like a re-match.”
A/N: while this one is for Queen siluria who favors Jack and Sawyer, hoping that I managed to deliver ;) the title utterly sucks but I couldn't find a better one *sigh*.

( It doesn’t take Jack much to do the maths. )

*bows in front of Queen eponine119 *

Title: Somewhere Along the Line I Slipped off Track
Rating: R
Characters: Jack/Shannon, implied Shannon/Boone and Jack/Boone
Words: 1000.
Summary: The only thing he says is that he’s sorry; it’s the only thing she says, too..
Spoilers: through The Greater Good.
Disclaimer: Lost is not mine. Why, would I write it in this setting if it was?
A/N: queen eponine119, asking for unusual pairings, expressed preference for Jack/Shannon. Now, I really tried, but being on the Jack/Boone side of the fence (and on the Boone side of the fence anyway) brought my head to this which I'm afraid is utterly depressing. I hope you like it anyway! *bows* using also for un_love_you #19, this isn't about you at all, even if it could be a bit of a cheat. Title stolen from Springsteen's One Step Up, which doesn't have a thing to do with this whatsoever.

( The only point is that Boone is dead, they aren’t and he probably would be disgusted at the both of them, but well, thinking more about it, maybe he wouldn’t. )

Well, it was the only one missing, so I just ignored my canon issues and went with it.

Title: As I Sat by Her Side
Rating: PG
Pairing: Shannon/Sayid
Word Count: 550
Disclaimer: No, not mine. So not mine.
Summary: Sayid doesn’t know why he’s so sure that the bracelet, half buried in white sand, was Boone’s.
Spoilers: Set after Orientation, but anyway up until Exodus I guess.
A/N: for 5_loves #4, jewel. And I'm done with it. Clearly since it concerns Shannon someone else had to be in the mix, even if he sort of isn't. I actually had a whole lot of other plans for this one, but the current canon completely ditched them and I had to invent something else. Oh well, I hope it's not too far out. The title is sort of stolen from a Nick Cave song completely out of desperation, but it doesn't have a thing to do with this.

( Shannon gasps when Sayid’s fingers, closed in a fist when he sat next to her in front of the cave she’s staying in at the moment, unclench slowly and he lays the bracelet on the ground, between them. )

And yours truly is done with another table. Yay! It's not like I'm so really convinced of this one but I'm convinced I'll never have a serious Boone/Shannon bunny even if I tried so I just went with it. And I needed to get away from Kant's politics for a while.

Title: Repetition Does Not Transform a Lie Into a Truth
Rating: PG13 to be way sure (always sorta incest, right?)
Characters/Pairing: Boone/Shannon
Word counting: 540
Disclaimer: If they were mine, he'd be alive and she'd have treated him better.
Spoilers: Up until Do No Harm but really, is that even a spoiler?
Summary: What’s most pathetic, is that Boone died believing all the crap she had always told him, or so she figures.
A/N: for 12_stories #6, truth. And apart from the fact that I'm done with that table I don't think there's really that much to say ;) title found on quotationspage.com. I hope Mr. Franklin Delano Roosevelt doesn't kill me all over again in the afterlife for the use I made of his line.

( Now, that was just ironic, that he managed to cheat her as easily as she had cheated him, and she had fallen for her own trick. )